Climbing the Mountain

I have decided I need to get this out of my head and into the world.  Or the void.  Whatever this is.  I have a few fairly large things weighing heavily on my mind at the moment.  Reasons for stress are keeping me awake, or making me want to stay in bed.  I’m an avoider, but right now there are few options, so if I avoid I will end up with big problems.  Here goes…

1. This is my final week of art school, ever.  Well for now at least.  The end of my fourth year.  The end of my honours degree.  The end of a huge part of my life.  The perfect excuse for some existential angst.  What will I do next?  What will I do with my life?  I’m nearly 30 (gasp) and I should probably make some plans.  Which leads on to my next thing…

2.  I have to get a job, and soon.  My student allowance finishes this month and my part time job is not going to cut-it as far as paying the rent is concerned.  I have applied for one job but haven’t heard anything back yet, and I don’t really want to think about it.  I certainly don’t want to start a serious job-hunt right now.  Urg!

3. My flatmate’s moving out at the end of the month and the landlord wants to know what I want to do.  If I move out as well she wants three weeks notice.  Which means I need to make a decision this week.  Find someone?  Find a new flat?  This one is a big issue for me because I love my apartment in the city.  Its been great living with Liz and it’ll be hard to find someone new who could afford to live there, wants to move in this month, and that I would be able to handle living with.  I don’t want just anybody.  I have thought about finding a place in Kingsland with one of my friends (if its affordable and I can figure it out soon…) and it seemed like he might be keen.  But I don’t want to have the pressure of having to do this right this minute.  There’s too much else to think about.  And I don’t want to pressurize him into doing something he’s not really into.  Problem.

4.  My car.  Sigh.  My apartment building doesn’t have any parking so I have to park on the street.  My Warrant of Fitness runs out this month, and like last time I’m pretty sure I won’t get a new one.  This time there are too many actual issues that I have to fix that I don’t have the money for.  And I can’t leave my car parked on the street until I can afford to fix it.  I won’t get away with not paying the $200 fine for not having an up-to-date warrant a second time.  What to do what to do what to do?

They say let go and let God, right?  But I can’t just sit and wait for everything to fall into my lap.  That’s called stupidity, not faith.

Well, now that I’ve gotten that off my chest here’s something that’s made me smile this week:  Efterklang are a Danish band who make “otherworldly pop songs” and have been compared to Sigur Ros and Sufjan StevensHere‘s a video of them playing live accompanied by the Danish National Chamber Orchestra. Love.  In fact I suggest you suspend all other activities and watch all of their videos on You Tube.  They will probably change your life.

Right, now go about your business.


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