He lay in bed, in the dark, and scrolled the Internet on his phone. He saw a GIF from a romantic film where the leading man was kissing into the leading woman’s neck over and over and over as she laughed and turned her head away, baring more of her neck to his embrace. In his head he switched himself for the leading man and the leading woman for her, imagining a world in which this could be his reality. His stomach dropped, then clenched and released and his vision wavered slightly. He realised he was terrified. What if it were truly possible? For several weeks, every now and then, he had been allowing himself to imagine such a thing, but in reality it seemed so far off as to be almost insurmountable and he kept shutting the thoughts away in order to protect himself.
In Development Hell