November 19, 2015

after adam

I haven’t picked up my camera in a while.  I haven’t felt it.  That thing.  You can see how long it’s been.  Just look at the last post.  Sometime at the start of spring.  But yesterday while I was sitting on the sofa in the back yard, another thing I haven’t done in a while, I saw myself reflected in the glass doors and just had to capture the essence of what I had seen.  I’m calling it After Adam (ha!).

I’ve stopped cutting my hair and my beard.  I’ve never had my hair grow so long before.  I’d always gotten tired of it, or decided it was time for a change.  Maybe I’m becoming more patient.  Less restless.  Whatever, I like it.


That monstera deliciosa coming on so lush.  And I’ve finally had success with sprouting an avocado stone.  All it took was forgetting about it and assuming it was dead.


While I had my camera out, I saw this light shining in through my bedroom window.  At first I assumed it was the golden hour, but later I realised it was because of the fires in Western Australia creating a red-gold haze in the sky.

It’s easy to forget to remember that everything is abundant.  Especially when it sometimes seems like the world is falling down around us all.

the world is abundant

September 10, 2015

O, full of scorpions is my mind

September 10, 2015

I am looking forward to this film so much!  It is a bit out of control…

Macbeth (2015)
Dir. Justin Kurzel

continental drift

August 14, 2015

I had a cute encounter earlier today.  I had finished work and was going to the supermarket to pick up some supplies.  As I was coming to the escalator leading down to the supermarket, the kind of escalator that is flat so shopping trolleys (carts) can go on them, a woman with a baby and two small children and an older woman were getting on the escalator (isn’t escalator such a great word?), but the little girl, who was I would say around three years old, just stood at the top and watched as her family slowly drifted away from her.  They were trying to encourage her to get on and saying she would be fine, but she seemed too afraid and remained there frozen.  I was standing a little behind waiting to see what would happen, so the grandmother (I’m guessing that’s who she was) looked up at me and said, “Can you bring her?”  My usual response with strangers is to not involve myself because I feel awkward, but I felt badly for the child, so I gently lifted her onto the escalator and stepped on beside her, fully expecting that now she was on she would go and join her family.  Instead she grasped my finger very tightly and didn’t let go the whole way down.

further up; further in

August 13, 2015

Isn’t it fun when you’re at a midweek gathering for the volunteers that keep the church going and at the end of worship the pastor calls you out in front of everyone and says basically that you might think you stumbled into being a leader by mistake and feel like you don’t know how it happened, but that God has a plan for you and such…

I can’t even tell you what a privilege it is to serve alongside the people I do, and to call Hillsong Melbourne home.

Some points to remember:

  1. God never passes anyone by
  2. God is always faithful
  3. It’s not about me
  4. We can’t serve if we’re empty (what does not being empty look like?)

caught up

August 12, 2015

It can be so easy to be swept along by the tide of life and forget to stop and think.  I’ve hardly ever been good at staying updated with what’s happening in my life on here, because life is just… life? and it keeps going and keeps going, but considering how bad I am at staying in touch with people I should probably at least make an effort.

So as you know, it’s winter.  Melbourne just suffered its way through the coldest July in 20 years (it didn’t feel all that cold to me, but whatever).  This has found me sitting wrapped in a duvet and basically on top of my heater most of the time.  I’m ready for a change.

Church is going well… it feels good to be part of a community with some really great people, and to have a team of volunteers around me who feel like a family (I don’t know if I’ve mentioned but for the past few months I’ve been given the responsibility of overseeing the whole hosting team for one of the evening services, which considering we meet in a theatre which has three levels, and is quite a juggle logistically, is no small challenge).

(That’s me in the beanie in the top left picture)

Work has been going along nicely as well.  I’ve been managing more consistently and been feeling a lot more settled in general.  I was just thinking the other day about how great it is to work with actual adults, most of whom can be relied on to take responsibility for their work and get it done, as well as just be great to be around in general.  I’ve had some annoying technical stuff happen on my shifts in the last couple of weeks, and the staff just keep things going whilst I’m running back and forth like a crazy person.  We’ve got a good team.

And lastly, it’s my favourite time of year: the International Film Festival.  This year I have 25 films booked (just nine left to go now before it finishes up at the weekend), I’m pretty sure that’s more than I had last year even.  I haven’t had any huge stand-outs this year, mostly because none of my favourite directors have films playing, and I’ve also not gone to a lot of films because they’re already scheduled for release at work over the next few months.  I’m going to predict that my favourite film playing this years festival is one that I won’t see for a while… the new adaptation of Macbeth by Australian director Justin Kurzel, which looks A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.  I had an early feeling it would play the festival but it wasn’t in the programme, then on Tuesday they announced it as a surprise screening this Sunday afternoon.  It is already sold out, and also I couldn’t have gone anyway because church.  But seriously.  It releases theatrically here in October, and I can’t wait.

Anything else?  Oh love life.  What love life?  Forever alone.  Undateable.  Yadda yadda yadda.  Singletons unite!

Life.  Oh life.  Ooooh li-i-i-i-fe. Oh life. Do-do-do-do.

tumblr_nsynpxb8hW1qbtakdo1_540Bye now.  I have a meeting at church to go to then some weird film at the film festival.

2:26 am and all is well

July 24, 2015

There is definitely some sort of rodent in my bedroom right now!  And there has been for a couple of days.  I can hear them rustling around in my cupboard right now this minute.  The other night they were in my wardrobe; up to no good I’m sure.  I will name them Boudicca.  I just threw them some almonds.  It’s important to be hospitable to guests.


hot-and-cold mess

July 15, 2015

My life has a certain… shapeliness?  I work every day.  I include church in that, because being a volunteer, leading volunteer teams every week, it’s not exactly restful.  I have one day to myself.  One day a week.  Wednesday has become my Sabbath.  The day where I have no demands on my time.  I get to decide what I do.  I don’t have to be subjected to the whims of others.  Except even then I do.  This is what it means to live with people.

A stranger has come To share my room in the house not right in the head A girl mad as birds

This is a quote from Love in the Asylum by Dylan Thomas, and while it doesn’t relate to me because for me it isn’t about my love life (what love life… forever alone, etc. etc.), I can always relate to it.  The tyranny of the other, and the inability to reconcile with the inevitability of misunderstandings.  I am grumpy and horrible.  I don’t want to be a hermit.  But on my day off I don’t want to see people who don’t live here.  So I choose instead to avoid all contact.  Except by prior arrangement and with plenty of time for warm up.


Okay, end rant.


July 10, 2015

“sorry i didn’t respond to your text i was disenchanted with the entire human experience,” a thrilling new memoir by me

file under: quotes from the internet that are relevant to my entire life

the desolation

July 8, 2015

no i wont go to work i refuse

This was me today before my 2 minute on-foot commute to work.  As you can see it was a struggle.


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